Get Away

Ever since I was a child, people were reaching for the bottle

And for a moment I was too

Drowning in my mind’s darkest room

Suddenly I have no idea why I said the things I did

Did I learn it as a kid?

I’m done with this again

Everyone needs a space to get away sometimes

Nothing I ever say will change your mind 

But I’ll change mine 

Am I more like you than I ever wanted to admit? 

Buried deep within

A game I’ll never win

Everyone needs a space to get away sometimes

Nothing I ever say will change your mind 

But I’ll change mine

Esmerelda

Oh Esmerelda, I’m smoking cigars on the porch and I hope you know that I’m losing this fight 

I’m halfway to hell and the house right next door is just rotting away, the wood will decay by my side 

White lies 

Time flies 

We’re growing further apart 

Night falls, phone calls 

We make our way back to the start 

Expired that day back in March

Found refuge in the back yard 

The blue plastic chair and the buckets of paint, oh they tear me apart, my eyes stay fixed on the skyline 

White lies 

Time flies 

We’re growing further apart 

Night falls, phone calls 

We make our way back to the start 

Expired that day back in March

Found refuge in the back yard 

Oh Esmerelda, I’m laughing my way to the old circle K

With a screech from a nearby train 

I took the wrong trail and now up on the ridge, there’s a tree hollowed out where you carved the sum of our names 

White lies 

Time flies 

We’re growing further apart 

Night falls, phone calls 

We make our way back to the start 

Expired that day back in March

Colors

Paint another scene just to ease the night 

And let all of the color shine

He doesn’t have shoes or a hand to hold 

Lost in a world so bold 

Summer days waiting by the overpass

Beauty in the shadows cast 

A stranger’s smile from across the street

The fleeting day’s retreat  

You don’t mind when he slips into your rear view

Concrete walls and a cart worn thin 

Highways with nowhere left to begin 

A cavas waits for the perfect spill

Filled with memories to distill 

A rusty old bike lying in the dirt 

The faded stripes on his shirt 

Dim light glows from the corner store

The face you can’t ignore 

Is there a future waiting up ahead?

Way beyond the stony bed 

Trash bag full of old drawings here

Never to reappear 

He won’t mind slipping into your rear view 

Concrete walls and a cart worn thin 

Highways with nowhere left to begin 

A cavas waits for the perfect spill

Filled with memories to distill 

Nothing Personal

Through the parking lot grinding your teeth
Behaving like a deadbeat
Threats are fired and you’re biting your lip
So much for old friendships

Live and let die
I wish for once you’d hear my side
Like I said, nothing personal

No new message but it’s all in your head
It’s not about what you said
Back then I was knocking at your front door
Can’t go back anymore

All your advice
Can you sleep with this tonight
Wire crossed, can we clear it up?

Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out
Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out

Thoughts are crashing and your face is blood red
It's not about what you said

Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out
Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out
Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out
Choose to feed all of your demons
I will block it out

Picture Perfect

You came home drunk again 

It’s alright if I just pretend 

Cause I believe you can change 

It seems no matter what I do 

Your excuses bleed right through

You care because you have to 

We’re picture perfect 

But underneath the surface 

You’re dragging your feet 

Stuck in the shoes of your father 

Did all our vows mean a thing?

To me it’s far more than just a ring 

To you it’s just a burden 

We’re picture perfect 

But underneath the surface 

You’re dragging your feet 

Stuck in the shoes of your father 

When you’re in need,

I rise to the occasion 

Somewhere along the way 

We lost the old sensation 

Only now can I see who you are 

Now I’m left crying out to the stars 

We’re picture perfect 

But underneath the surface 

You’re stuck dragging your feet 

Stuck in the shoes of your father 

When you’re in need,

I rise to the occasion 

Somewhere along the way 

We lost the old sensation 

The sensation 

Dispel

Conscience calls me up
I’ve become a stranger in the worst kind of way
Was as close to unknown as I could’ve been

I see you at last passing by the gray arch of the bridge on the river
With the breeze like a hand holding me back

If I tell a joke that no one would get,
What am I to do when when there’s no one there to laugh
Wander through the park, searching for meaning across the garden
Dispel our guilt before it’s spent

Float through the old canals, a maze of city streets and I think I got turned around
But the lights flicker past and i’m nodding off
Bikers in the street, swarming all around me, like some portrait on parade
And for what’s it’s worth, I let it slip away

If I tell a joke that no one would get,
What am I to do when when there’s no one there to laugh
Wander through the park, searching for meaning across the garden
Dispel our guilt before it’s spent

If I tell a joke that no one would get,
What am I to do when when there’s no one there to laugh
Wander through the park, searching for meaning across the garden
Dispel our guilt before it’s spent

Stain

A blissful couple holding their newborn

A feeling swells up like nothing from before

The walls cave in, turn the room inside out

All the lazy Sunday afternoons

Now they’ve become far and few between

Ask away, anything you’d like to know I’ll tell you

Got your fix but somehow you’re still broke 

Pacing and you’re trembling as he spoke

Gonna walk away before you have to face the consequences

Gonna bleed it out and wipe away the stain you have created

Bleed it out before you have to face the consequences

Midnight Walk

For the past little while, haven’t felt like myself

Just didn’t wanna leave you empty handed

I’ve got an open chair that sits below the moon

A midnight walk in the heart of June

I tell a thrilling joke and you crack up

Though I grin, something catches my throat

Might be sentimental, let my guard down

Pictures flash from when you’d come around

I say too much and I apologize again

It feels like I don’t know you anymore

Like I did before

I’m folding up the clothes and putting them away

Maybe just need a change of pace

You’re standing in the hallway, I’m downing another glass

Again and again I replay the past

Swerving down the boardwalk, regret in your step

I feel the truth upon your lips

Don’t you wish we could hit rewind?

Golden clouds aren’t silver-lined

I say too much and I apologize again

It feels like I don’t know you anymore

It feels like I don’t know you anymore

No place to stay and no voice to fill the space

Star-crossed lovers caught beneath the wade

Down the stairs your steps begin to fade